"I want someone who understand me, even when words are not spoken."

It seem like I cant delete my blog. Its been weeks since I update. Only on my blog where I write all my feelings down as I'm not a kind of person who express it to others. My holidays hadn't been quite fun and enjoyable. Most of the days I spend with Amalina : finding work, escaping work, lepak and basically laughing at all the stuff that is not funny.
Basically, I'm really tired of begging my mum about some stuff. I feel that she is not treating me the way she treat my other siblings. She pampered my two small sister and give 100% freedom to my kakak. As for me, I know I should be grateful of what I have but hey there are something that I really want but my mum doesn't even care to give. I really want a goddamn ATM card but guess who get it first. My adek, everything she wants, she will get. She wants an Mp3, she gets it. New clothes, she gets it. PAMPERED TO THE HELL. My mum also doesn't care if I have money to eat or not. If she want to enjoy, she would just basically only dragged my sisters along leaving me alone at home with nothing to eat. And one more thing, Everytime, every single time when ever I'm free at home, she would treat me like A MAID! Ezza vacuum the house, Ezza sweep the floor, Ezza go buy that buy this. And in return wat did I get.. NOT EVEN A FUCKING THNKS FROM HER and all she did was to nag nag nag and nag. You tell me how am I suppose to endure with this life of mine. I'm not even happy with the way I'm living right now. Sometimes I feel like breaking down in front of her but for what right she dont even care. I'm jealous of some of my friends family. They have family time, eat out together, go holiday together. But My family. We are like strangers living in one house not knowing each other. HAIIISSS:(
OK nvm, enough of this.