Promises

:(

2011-04-04T23:00:00.002+08:00

CAN YOU GUYS JUST GIVE ME A BREAK? i REALLY NEED ONE.

THANK YOU!

The lace.......

2011-03-13T22:59:00.003+08:00

So I guess this is how the feeling of falling in love. I don't know whether this is a true love or just other game played by us.

The non-stop texting everyday.

The morning greetings which also interrupt my beauty sleep. hehe^^.

The surprised birthday present from you which I didnt expect it.

I ♥ it so much.

I don't really know what your true feelings towards me but to tell you the truth, I think I'm falling for you. LOL!!!

Ok, Miss Ez'zati here is talking rubbish about her life -.-!

Ok done talking about this,

lets talk about my academics.

Fuuyoh! my grades are getting from bad to worse. I cant see any improvement in my studies. Zzzzzz! Now, holidays got IP coaching. Haiss, so troublesome but still beneficial, right? OK then.

Like finally I blogged again.

Goodnite readers, and

I love HIM !♥

Are you pretending?

2011-02-07T19:07:00.002+08:00

Okay I dont knw how to start this but I had to, so here I go...

Aku dah tak tahu ape lagi nak buat. I really feel yg krng buat aku mcm sampah. Krng suke krng kutip, krng tak suke krng buang. For the past four years in school, I realise something... Even if I do something good to you guys, I'll still be hated. Aku tak tahu pun aku salah. Berdosa ke sgt aku ni sampai krng nak buat aku mcm gini. After all the things that you guys had done to me, I dont care, I still be your friend but even with a little mistake I ever made, you guys hate me to the core. Please lah klu Aku salah krng blng. Aku tak kan benci krng. Please please I beg you guys. Stop this can. Even if we dont look like we are fighting, but I can see that our friendship is drifting apart. FAR APART! I miss the old us. sigh. Sorry lah. I give up dah. klu krng masi nak benci aku , I cant do anything but just to accept the fact. :( :( :(

♥LOVE korang no matter what.

2011-01-09T12:13:00.002+08:00

Basically, went NP and Vivo City with this people ytd and Ameera too *not in the pic*.

Awesome time I had with them. ALL MY BELOVED BESTFRIENDS. They sure know how to make my day. I love them lah.

This year is my final year in Kranji Sec. I do not want to be anyone's enemy. Be my friend is all I want you to be. :)

Haiya, I dont know wat to blog today.

I'm bored at home.. Alone again.. FOREVER ALONE EHK? hahha.. Macam Phm!!!

I make alot of new friends during the long holidays. Even friends out of my school.

OMG!!! I seriously dont know wat to blog lah. I'm writing rubbish here. hahahha!

Nvm lah.

Shall blog again soon. hahahhah!

School starts!

2011-01-03T09:51:00.003+08:00

To tell you the truth, my holidays was well spent. Going out with my besties, doing last minute plans was cool. School starts tomorrow and maybe I'm excited and maybe not. No feeling. NEUTRAL. ha ha^^.

I seriously had A SUPERDUPER BAD DREAM ytd. School is starting and I'm dreaming about him. Omg lah. After all those time I take to stop thinking about him, I dreamed about him doing sweet stuff for me and TMR SCHOOL REOPEN. If only I could go to him and slap him a MILLION times. haisss... * i swear if I can, I will do that*

I'm so not prepared for school. I haven even write my names on my books yet. haha

I realise the nearer it is to school days, the lazier I'm becoming. I dont even know why.

I really really hope that 2011 will bring my more luck than before &&& please dont make me fall in love with anyone. I dont want LOVE to get in the way between me and my studies. O level man this year. I really need to work hard and go into poly next year.

I hope I will enjoy school this year like I somehow did enjoy last year :)

Goodbye 2010.

Hello 2011.

♥

Bestfriend forever!

2010-12-27T12:26:00.002+08:00

Friday, 24/12/2010

Time: 2p.m

A day before Christmas, I went bowling with that Bitch in that picture.

To tell the truth, I'm suck at bowling. haha! Amalina won two games but hey, atleast I did win one game. Lucky me. We ended at 5 plus and decided to go Vivo City. We snap here, snap there.. snap snap everywhere. Enjoy ourselves though.

I love going home with Her. Unexpected things happened on the way home. The non stop laughing in trains really make my day.

♥ ♥ ♥ my bestfriend lah.

On Christmas Day itself, I went ECP with my family. Playing in the rain is the only part I like. the rest of the day was boring. BLEAH! Due to the rain, we went to uncle house and ended up watching 'Jangan pandang belakang congkak 2'... Funny show and I recommend you to watch it. HAHA! :)

Okielah, I shall update again soon.

tata!!!

happy days

2010-12-21T15:18:00.002+08:00

Sunday; 19/12/2010

Time: 10 a.m

When to ECP ( skate park) with Amalina, Asyiqin, Amarul, Fahmi, Farizul, Izz, Dody and Izz's cousin. I swear its my first time going there. haha! I mean the skate park. Saw alot of Mat Salleh and as usual we named those who we are attracted to. We got new friends. Dicky, Shaun and BoBo (full name Bo-dek) hahhaha! We went there with the intention to roller blade but the weather is kinda being a naughty bitch so we decided to turn back. We didnt know wat to do and end up eating ICE KACANG! Yum yum.

Had an awesome and fun day that time. But I seriously hate the "go home" part hahah! Shall not talk abt it. SAKIT HATI JE!!!!

13 more days before so reopen && I think I kinda getting excited about that. hahha! I miss school yknw. I think I shall have one last outing with my besties. BOWLING TIME!!!

And the rest of the day I'll just chill at home.

I shall watch movies, make funny videos with my adeks or make a cover. haahaa.. LIKE REAL!

OKIE! Shall update again nxt tyme.

♥ ya.

Holidays

2010-11-29T22:21:00.006+08:00

It's been awhile since I updated this blog. I been busy these few days. I went Malaysia accompanying my aunt, sending my grandparents back to kampung for 4 days. Went shopping to many different places that I had been to. Many unexpected things happened there though.

I witness in a bus which I took, A GUY stole some tips from his friend, the bus driver. Can you imagine, YOUR FRIEND!!, a friend of yours steal your money. Its pathetic!! I cant do anything but just to sit there and watch that guilty man put that money in his pocket secretly. But to tell you the truth I just want to shout this, " Hello dumb ass, Are you stupid or idiot? I can see you and hear that coins dropping inside that bloody pocket!" Argh!! And i should shout this too, " BERTAUBAT LAH SEBELUM KAU GI TAUBATKAN... BODOH!!!!" ha ha.. By then confirm he never do that again.

Five days straight I didn't stay at home. Four days in Malaysia, all the four days I when shopping. The next day, although I'm tired, I went flea at Expo with Amalina. Puas hati jugak ah. I bought 2 dresses and a short for $18 and this is like my first time spending a lot of money in flea. Good job Ezzati, good job! ha ha!

p.s I miss studying... >

Prom Night

2010-11-21T09:54:00.002+08:00

OH man, I'm jealous looking at the photos of my friends from different sch. Their prom night was awesome I could say. Hopefully I could go next year if I went on to sec 5. Anyways, holiday was still boring for me. No excitement at all. It's been so long since I hang out and chat with that person. BORED! Next week I'm seriously going to be MISSING IN ACTION. Maybe only my twitter will be active. MAYBE!

My life...

2010-11-19T13:58:00.005+08:00

"I want someone who understand me, even when words are not spoken."

It seem like I cant delete my blog. Its been weeks since I update. Only on my blog where I write all my feelings down as I'm not a kind of person who express it to others. My holidays hadn't been quite fun and enjoyable. Most of the days I spend with Amalina : finding work, escaping work, lepak and basically laughing at all the stuff that is not funny.
Basically, I'm really tired of begging my mum about some stuff. I feel that she is not treating me the way she treat my other siblings. She pampered my two small sister and give 100% freedom to my kakak. As for me, I know I should be grateful of what I have but hey there are something that I really want but my mum doesn't even care to give. I really want a goddamn ATM card but guess who get it first. My adek, everything she wants, she will get. She wants an Mp3, she gets it. New clothes, she gets it. PAMPERED TO THE HELL. My mum also doesn't care if I have money to eat or not. If she want to enjoy, she would just basically only dragged my sisters along leaving me alone at home with nothing to eat. And one more thing, Everytime, every single time when ever I'm free at home, she would treat me like A MAID! Ezza vacuum the house, Ezza sweep the floor, Ezza go buy that buy this. And in return wat did I get.. NOT EVEN A FUCKING THNKS FROM HER and all she did was to nag nag nag and nag. You tell me how am I suppose to endure with this life of mine. I'm not even happy with the way I'm living right now. Sometimes I feel like breaking down in front of her but for what right she dont even care. I'm jealous of some of my friends family. They have family time, eat out together, go holiday together. But My family. We are like strangers living in one house not knowing each other. HAIIISSS:(
OK nvm, enough of this.

Went to watch Harry Potter ytd. It was fun. Thats all!

Serve us right!

2010-10-29T09:44:00.002+08:00

"I love his smile, I love his laugh, I love his personality but I hate that he love someone else."

I been out this whole week hunting for jobs with Nana Kechyk. Been to many places but we didnt have any luck I think.. No one wants to hire us. haha! I think this is a punishment for us for resigning our OLD job and by sending them A RESIGNATION TEXT MXG! Cool right. We two are such good gurls. So now I dont knw what job am I suppose to find. I resign being a waitress, I resign being a retail assistant and I resign walking from one shopping centre to another. HAHA!!!
Today got madrasah exam and I haven start studying. Its been so long since I study. Can someone teach me how to study? Is study: opening a book... and start staring at it? haha!

Tears dropping....

2010-10-24T12:45:00.003+08:00

Went sentosa three days ago, and I know you ppl realise I wasn't being myself lately. I dont knw why but I felt really confused. It hurts me deep inside knowing that you dont care. I was all alone at home every single day but Miss A is the only one who could save me from my misery. Thnks! Waited for some ppl to reply me like hell no fun at all. I'm pissed yeah! But I know the hell-dont-care-type-of-ppl dont really understand wat I'm feeling. Now its raining and I'm sitting alone at home listening to some slow song and my heart is starting to shatter into a million pieces I swear! CRY CRYING I CANT STOP.... OH GOD save me pls. I cant take this anymore. I've told someone but I dont know if i did the right thing. PLEASE! I really feel like giving up.

Pathetic Right!

2010-10-19T23:31:00.003+08:00

Time checked: 11.31pm

H just replied my mxg that i send at 8 plus. Pathetic right.
I dont want H to like me. I just want him to be my close friend and not more than that. I dont want to give him false hope. If H is reading this, I'm really sorry but I could just accept you as a friend. haisss... I'm feel so tired already.
Two more days of school. Cant wait for Thursday. Party party party.
OMG! I feel so tired that I dont knw wat else to write. Pathetic again right! haiss..
I guess this is the second last sentences that I'm writing.
Goodnite peeps!! *yawn yawn*

2010-10-11T15:04:00.008+08:00

MUST PLAY THIS VIDEO AND READ!!! okay (^_^)!

OK people! Since N level is done. Prepare to spread some love to everyone. But for me.... I'm prepare to hurt that someone!. haha!! Ok faking, maybe :)!

2010-10-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

N LEVEL DONE!!!!!

A new happy me :)

2010-10-06T12:58:00.002+08:00

MR. H is back ppl. I miss him so much cos' he use to be there for me during my ups and downs. I started to text him with the help of Miss Amalina. Two days of texting, web-caming and chatting with him really brighten my days. Although sometimes I felt annoyed by his Questions, I really glad to know him. He always look out for me. He is cute, funny and really annoying sometimes. I don't really regret texted him that day. Now I have really forgotten about MR. A. He is now in my past which I don't look back on cos' it would just break my heart. I'm happy now and that's all that I wish I'm now. So goodbye MR.A and welcome back MR.H.

ps: Mr H is just a friend to me. A really CLOSE FRIEND!

Studiessss!

2010-10-02T13:42:00.002+08:00

N level is starting again next week.
I, Nur Ezzati, still slacking.
Been going out studying with different ppl but still I feel like I'm slacking.
Now see, I still have the time to blog about this. I dont understand why someppl study like mad. All we need to do is, understand wat we have studied and practice them. Some even sleep late at nite just to STUDY! OMGEEE!!! Sorry to say, I'm not that kind of person who study late at nite. All the info I studied on will not let me say again WILL NOT go thru my head. So NO POINT! haha!.
Now planning with Ameera to go out studying. She is walking around the house cos she's bored while I'm blogging about my confusion towards ppl studying late at nite.
Ok, lastly I wanna say, I HAVE DELETED YOUR NUMBER AGAIN!!!. wahahha. But I got wrote it down somewhere in case of EMERGENCY only. But confirm no case one rite, so ya. TEEHEE :)!

Missed call!

2010-09-28T18:56:00.004+08:00

I hate that we ain't close anymore.
It starting to make me miss to you again. I can't accept the fact that we are in this state now. I'm afraid that I would lost you and never get you back. I miss that time where I texted you and you entertain me, but that happened once only. I feel like deleting your contacts out but I dont have the guts to and even if I did that, my friends are so going to scold me like last time. But that is the only way that I could forget about you. If only you didnt call me that day, I would have forgotten about you and not texted you for some random text mxges which you would probably ignore. Now I have no school for 1 week and I'm stuck at home. By me doing nothing, my mind will start reminding me of you. I really hate that. I wanna study but I think of you, I wanna eat but I think of you. I wanna stop thinking about you but still I think of you. so how am I suppose to hate you if I kept on thinking about you. N level is next week and I begged you to exit my mind now until my N level is done can. If you want to enter back, be my guest but if you wanna exit my mind and never to come back, I will be very glad and appreciate it alot. I think I really need to let you go. Holding you back in my heart is not an amazing thing to do cus its only destroying my heart. I really really need to do something about this. I knew this wasn't going to work. You and Me. One of us was going to end up getting hurt in the end and I'm upset that it happened to me. T_T!

Love you

2010-09-25T08:45:00.001+08:00

A song for you(L)!>

mad and sad

2010-09-21T22:27:00.002+08:00

OK guess wat, I can't take it anymore. I need to let it out.

So here I go....
"I can't stand anymore of your damn rude attitude towards me. I treat you like a FRIEND while you treat me like some rubbish. Yes, I admit that I like you but now I admit that I USED to like you. It was just a gift and nothing else and if you want to start accusing me of something that I didn't even thought of then forget about it. Giving me that fucked up face in your messages is hurtful enough knowing that you don't really appreciate it. I swear I hate myself for liking you and I guess I would really really regret on choosing you. So much of you being my "WORLD GREATEST FRIEND"!
Every time when my friends told me about you, I smile. But now guess wat I'm going to do .... I'm so going to walk away and not say a fucking word. I'm sorry but I'm really mad at you now. Even if I swear and curse on my blog, no one even care to read especially you. I hate myself and I hate you. Yes, I'm very very upset now. I can't even cheer myself up. I'm tired and sleepy but I cant seems to get those hurtful words you said to me out of my mind.
Tomorrow, I will pledge not to look at you, talk to you, face you or even hear your fucking voice. And if you make a choice not to come tmr then I will be very grateful . THANK GOD! Sometimes I do feel sad when you didn't come but as time pass, that sadness has faded away to a far far land. I'm happier around all my BEST FRIEND even if you were not around. Please I begged you to find an exit and escape my heart as fast as possible. I really don't want this thing to affect my studies. My heart had whispered to me saying that you are NOT the one and you are the biggest and harmful bacteria that I need to kill before you start spread and damage my innocent heart! Sorry:'(! "

Done. I done saying wat I wanted to say. If you ppl done reading this dont even ask me who this fucking person is. I'm really sorry. HAISSS!!! :( :( :( :(

Walking Everywhere.

2010-09-18T23:58:00.004+08:00

So basically went out yesterday right after school.

Went jalan raya with my Beloved NA's friend. Everything was in chaos at the first place but in the end everyone enjoy it. Collection $$$... ohh many many, haha!

As usual, we snap snap here, snap snap there. SNAP EVERYWHERE!

Eat walk eat walk eat walk eat walk.... and they repeat theirselves.

Reach home at about 12+. SO SLEEPY AND TIRED thanks to my superduper high heels. Then today went to Sabrina's crib. She invited us to her house. And somemore... we snap snap some photos. hah!

Oh well. Now is 12.10 and I'm sleepy oready. Tmr whole day in bed with worksheets all to be done. Goodluck to me hor. BTW, I love this month a lot. Many great things have happened to me. I LIOKE 100%. haha!! I never feel this way before but I just did. The month of September brings joy to everyone, huh! hehe^^!

No feelings lately!

2010-09-14T22:09:00.002+08:00

* Everyone thinks that we're together and I really wish they were right because it kills me to have to reply with " No, we're just FRIENDS". *

Raya mood is currently switched off. No mood to celebrate. The only part that I like about Raya is taking pics with my beloved cousins. That's all.

Btw I'm done with 3 papers for N. I don't even know whether I'm ready to take the rest.

A new term, a new hairstyle. I re bond it and cut concave. To tell the truth, I look like a lost girl from Egypt. HAh!!!

waited to long

2010-09-02T17:22:00.002+08:00

I have decided.

I'm letting Taeyang go.

I'm serious not kidding.

Can't wait forever right. Haiss :(!

Now I have Jong Hyun, YoSeob and Rain.

Thats all I want.

3 is enough right :)

Why Must I feel this way?

2010-08-29T00:39:00.005+08:00

Wow. 'N' level is like in one week time and the only thing that I have study is Consequences of Conflict for S.L. I really need to buck up man. I've gotten back my PPR and 14 points for Prelim.. hmmm I think I wanna do better than that. Maybe 10 point? I hope so. I'll try not to play or even touch the comp for one week or maybe after I'm done with the first 3 Exam papers. Getting weaker and weaker everyday. Weather also getting hotter and hotter. That the only reason that people starting to get lazier and lazier. I must change that fact and work harder.After 'N', if I got good marks, I'm so asking for a new handphone. Really need a new one. The old one... it is so old. HaHa!

JIA YOU TO ME!!!

Anway, I feeling like I'm missing someone right now. He's online but I dont have the guts to talk to him cos' I knw that he will not reply me. Saddening right, I know! But nehmind. I'm used to it and can still tahan. Only if he knows that... Nehmind lah. I must stop gugugaga over him. NO POINT AND NO HOPE!

Hey boy, yknw what. I hate myself for not having the courage to tell you __________! T_T

Be my one and only!

2010-08-21T17:48:00.003+08:00

I know that today is Saturday, a day when you go out and enjoy yourself after a long, tiring week of school. But while all my friends when out to have fun, Me.. Nur Ez'zati is suck at home playing comp. FML!

'N' level is coming. 14 more days to Malay Paper. I know that I'm still slacking but I swear, I will start studying my SS on Monday. Would like to thanks Ameera for lending me her notes :) THANKS BABE!

Beside playing computer, I was thinking on how to make my curly hair. I like my curls *look in the pic* but it is so goddam messy.. haha! hope my hair grow very fast, so it will look much more nicer and neater:) CURLS!

My mistake!

2010-08-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

Do I still love you?

2010-08-16T21:49:00.008+08:00

Sometimes I think that there is not a need to love someone who have no feelings for you. But I know that loving someone means having to care and give all your heart to that person although he/she doesn't seems to know it.

I didn't force myself to love someone but after awhile I need to force myself to forget about him. Its difficult but I'll try. Knowing that this is going to hurt me a lot, I just don't give it a damn. "Should I or Should I not" is the only question that I had been asking to myself. Should I carry on or should I just give up half way? :( blablablabla.

OK enough of all this things.. My head is going crazy thinking of this matter.

OK, last Saturday I went flea with Amalina then we walked to Esplanade. We sit and watched performance by B-boys all over Asia (i think). Now thanks to these performance, me and Amalina are so into Taiwan guys. haha!! Hot bangat deh. We so going Taiwan after N level. *like real* he he^^.

Ps: I love you but I hate you; I miss you but I never want to see you again ♥

Did I?

2010-08-12T11:36:00.002+08:00

Today, I feel so weird. Really really weird. I feel that my presence is not needed. Did I do anything wrong? I dont think so right.
No EZZATI= More FUN???
I guess so. Shall M.I.A today if can cos' everyone doesn't need me today. Study in the afternoon. 1 to 4 then sleep from 4 to 7. haha I love my new time table.
Miss my primary schools friends all a sudden. Cant wait for our * if confirm* end-of-year outing tgt. hmmm!

Love at first sight!

2010-08-07T01:10:00.002+08:00

Time check: 01.12am
Eyes check: Still wide

Ok, today I felt like a love consultant. One after another ppl talking to me about their love life. I can stop laughing b'cos of that someone. Sweet, funny.. I can't tahan!
I'm have to many secrets to keep but I wasn't sure of letting the cat out of the bag. They are not my secret so I shall kept it to myself, rite. Even my own secrets I didn't tell others. Only my BESTEST knows. right right right.
Today, after school, I slept for 3 hours. I woke up at 3 then I decided to sleep back at 4. I woke up at 6+ then. Wow break record! ha ha!!! Now I can't sleep.. good job Ez'zati.
Then then then ... this Amalina asked me a really unreasonable question just now. I swear I did blush but really I didn't give her the final answer. But wait! I'm so not giving cus' I knw that it will nvr happen although with an "if" at the beggining of the question. SORRY!!!! paiseh ttm!

Yo Seob my L.O.V.E!

2010-08-05T16:15:00.004+08:00

Let me show you this:

Awwwww... Don't my Yo Seob looks ADORABLE... Luv him so much.. muahmuah!!!

OK, today I basically woke up by a surprised call from Amalina. ha ha! Awesome story that she had told me. I'm freaking tired and mad at myself for sleeping only for 2hours( 1300-1500). Not enough lah seh!! I need my sleep that kakak had take away from me. She didn't slept the whole night yesterday, sitting next to me with her lappy on her lap and listening to music thru' her earpiece && SING LIKE A MAD PERSON-loudly. ha ha. So tell me how am I going to sleep like that. haisss...

So for prelim, I'm done with English Paper1&2, Malay Paper1&2, Maths Paper1, Social Studies and Geography. Tmr is NDP but I have this freaking chemistry test and I freaking hate the chemistry teacher who tot that my dad in an Indian.. CURSE HIM CURSE HIM CURSE HIM!!! I SWEAR I WILL CURSE HIM.. ARGH! I so paiseh when he said that in front of the whole class. Shit you! Damn it!

No more fun?

2010-07-29T11:09:00.008+08:00

Yoyo people.
OK first thing first. I'm gonna be so bored today because there is no school. I want to go to school. It is much more better than staying at home and study all by myself. Tomorrow my Prelim starts. English paper first. Then on Saturday I have to need to go to school. DAMN IT! Stupid POP. Can I seriously not go. I'm scared. I have forget all the foot drills and I know that all those PEOPLE there will torture us like hell. I know they all miss us rite and I'm seriously expecting cakes, food, water balloon and more food. Fun Fun Fun. Should I ask sis to lent me her camera??? I want some memories with NCC since this year is my LAST year. ha ha! I'm so not join in next year..
*BLUEK BLUEK*

Worst day EVER!

2010-07-22T23:14:00.003+08:00

~I dont get you. You dont get us.~

Well, today doesnt go off very well. I'm not siding anyone but I feel like I'm the third party. I told you to just stop this fucking nonsence of yours but you just make it worst. Now I dont knw what to do. ~~DO YOU ME AND MY BESTFRIEND TO FIGHT because of you and your big mouth.~~ This all will not happen if you didnt come on that day. And you knw wat it means?? It means that there will only be me, her and (insert name) and none of this will happen. Haiss.. when will you ever change!!!
So now... HOW AM I GOING TO STUDY? I'm not going to abandon my friend to study alone but at the same time I must entertain you. Guess wat! Might as well I dont go for night study anymore right. I stay at home and stare into blank spaces! And hoping that all this never happened.

ps: *Sorry my friend, I knw how you feel when ppl call you names. I dont knw what to do anymore.*

hurtful enough!

2010-07-20T13:47:00.004+08:00

*Dont think that this would be very hurtful, but it does.
Seeing you everyday makes my heart go.. boomboomPOW!( break and shattered into 2564713 pieces)-.-"*

Not in a good mood today thnks to someone. HATE it when ~~(insert name)~~ does that to me. I'm not a wall, a chair or any stationary stuff,okay? Do you mind? Just promise me that you wouldnt do that anymore... but seriously lah, I AM NOT A FUCKING WALL! You can talk to me yknw. Dont act as if I'm not there while I'm standing right in front of your fucking face!

I know that I'm fasting today but I really got to express my feelings. Writing it down is much more better than telling someone. Its true and you have to try it someday. The feelings totally changes after you write it down somewhere!=.="

Going night study again with BABE/S. Eating out with Amalina to breakfast later. Haiss...*bangbangkaabom* hear that! The thunder is making to many noises, haha! its dark outside like it was 6 in the morning. I bet its going to ~~rain~~ *rain heavily*!!!! AHHHH.. pls pls pls... no no no!:( :( :(

CRYING FOR YOU

2010-07-17T21:03:00.005+08:00

~Feeling like tearing up again. Everytime I think about you.~

I'm not that type of person who likes to tell others who I like. I keep it to myself till the moment that I can't keep any longer. By then I will confess. But for now I think I still can control my feelings, my (halfway) broken heart and my mind.

I can't study but I force myself too. BUT none of it stay in my head, my brain or even my mind! When jogging today hoping I could forget all my problems, my stress and my (heart) pain. And yes I did... for the past 5 minutes only. hah! Tomorrow is Sunday ppl and I think I will still be stuck at home studying. Or I could just go to the library and study and stare at people who are just passing by making a lot of noise while my mind say this " YOU THINK FUNFAIR ISIT!!!" I swear anyone who make noise around me, I will say that but not so loudly lah... haha:D!

Studying with friends are the most awesome thing EVER! After all the stress due to studying, they will make you laugh although others find it irritating. They will laugh to your jokes while you laugh to their's. I really glad to have a fun and loving study group. They are all awesome people but sometimes I feel like SMACKING them for talking so loud and not studying. But I also hope that we will have this study group till prelim ends. I wish, I hope, I want... (^_^)!!!

Prelims will be in like 3 weeks time and I swear I'm lacking behind. I'm going to finish up that piece of globalisation note by tmr and start a new chapter. haiss! Actually I'm not stress but I'm making myself feel that way. Thanks to myself for slacking behind.. hahah!!!

Friends~ they are awesome!

2010-07-10T13:09:00.002+08:00

Hmm,.. Let me see where should I begin.

Ok, lets talk about English Oral. I had lots of pauses and I think is a bad thing. But overall I think I can manage. Today, I'm so going to start memorising SS. Tons of notes to memorise.

One week straight I went out studying with Amalina. Fun Fun Funny Fun Fun. I kept on dreaming about ____! I dont knw why but I think I should stop.

N level Prelim is next month. and I'm Nur Ez'zati still slacking behind. Although I always slept at 11 everynight, in school I'm like a half dead zombie. Cant stay awake at all. But there are some ppl who can make my eyes stay wide awake. Amalina, Ameera, Wani, Izz, Ridz and Kelvin. These ppl they are awesome!!! They are fun to be with. Make me laugh and cheer me up sometimes... I'm feel so lucky having friends like them:)

LOVE YOU GUYS LAH SEH!!! muahmuah. >

Pathetic but useless

2010-07-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

"I think I did something wrong but at the same time I did nothing wrong.
The way you talk to me as if you were angry with me but I swear I did nothing wrong."

Holidays are gone!

2010-06-27T20:18:00.002+08:00

In less than 24 hours, school will be opening again. Finished all my assignment but not yet starting on chemistry and physic test. Coursework is only left with 3 pages man... Too lazy to start on my overall evaluation.
I totally hate this June Holiday but I swear the next school holiday, I'm off to have some fun. School bag haven been packed yet and uniform haven been iron yet.. going to do so after this. So tired today after forcing my brain to think for 2 pages of coursework. Good right! ha ha. Anyway, can't wait to see my babes tomorrow. Miss them many many..
Chaw for now.. byei:)

Give me a break

2010-06-25T17:43:00.003+08:00

Hell ya man. Guess what. I had just finish 1 page and let me saying it again 1 page only of my coursework. So many things distracting me facebook, twitter, msn. ARGH!!! Anyway tomorrow I am confirm not going to the family gathering because there is so many reason for me not to. Firstly, my coursework still undone and I haven even start studying for my physic and chemistry test. And the other reason was because my house door is... hm mm never mind not important to tell. ha ha!! I have convince my mum and she allowed me to stay at home.. YIPPEE man!!!!
For the whole june holidays, I have been eating and eating and I could not stop. But I never grew fat and that is a good thing. Today I ate 2 ramly burger and a lot of keropok lekor. YUM YUM YUM!
Anyway school is starting in two days time, hope that nothing change especially those teachers. Don't want them to start nig nag nugging at us and talk for 24 hours about or coming N level prelim:). So thats all for today.

Sis not at home the whole day, so the bed is all to myself.. WOOHOO!!!!!!

I beg you please.

2010-06-24T15:30:00.005+08:00

Tomorrow is the last day that I could finish up my coursework. Still left with 6 pages and I don't even know what the hell am I going to write. My research left with just 1 more page and I can't make my brain to start thinking on what else I could write down. My evaluation is half way done and still my brain can't seems to help me. Saturday I got this family gathering that I dont wish to go at all. To me, all this is a waste of time. I could do something like studying or finish up my bloody coursework.. rite? Who wants to spend time with old people celebrating their birthday. My cousins are all small and I don't wish to play around with them anymore like i used too.... And if I go, all I would do is eat, eat, and eat some more. But the actually reason why I don't want to go because I don't want to see that FUCKING BLOODY IDIOT FACE! I just wish he could get out of my life. Hate you fucking asshole. I seriously wish I could beg my mum so that she could let me stay at home. I really really don't want to see his face.. ARGH!

Btw, thanks Ameera for giving me my JONGHYUN back. Be happy with your Junho:)

Out wif BFF!

2010-06-20T11:57:00.004+08:00

Went out with Amalina yesterday was a last minute plan. Went out at around 4 plus and met up with her at Outram Park. We decided to go Keppel Bay instead of Sentosa, more peaceful and free of charge.. haha!! Then went to her house, last minute plan again and slept over. Today going swimming or maybe not. Going to sleep at nenek house till tmr only.
My homework I still haven touch yet. Got one last week to do so.
Assignment to be done:

2 physics worksheet
F&N coursework
Chemistry worksheet

Thats about it I think.

Missing you already.

2010-06-17T18:50:00.007+08:00

(missing my long hair too)
I'M SUPER DUPER BORED AT HOME DOING NOTHING. DON'T EVEN FEEL LIKE STUDYING. MY BODY IS ACHING AND I'M SLEEPY..YAWN! SOMEBODY PLEASE BRING ME OUT OF MY HOUSE!!! I NEED AIR.. FRESH AIR AND SOMEBODY BETTER GIVE ME SOME... OK THAT'S ALL... SHALL GO SLEEP NOW. DON'T CARE.

&&& BTW, I MISS HIM A LOT NOW:(

uʍopǝpısdn

2010-06-13T20:31:00.004+08:00

Today was as if my house was having an open house. One after and another visitors coming in. haha! And at the same time many funny accidents happened. Tea spilling all over the carpet, rice is all over the floor and this is all caused by my uncle. So old already mah, do work also upside down.. hehe(^_^)!!!

Watching "Macam2 Aznil" now. A boy was force to wear a diapers... He was call the Pampers Boy... haha!!! sometimes watching this kind of funny shows does make your day.

Tomorrow is Monday and I guess is a perfect day to start studying hor. haha I kept saying that but I never touch any of my books yet. Get too lazy as days goes by. hais!! Never mind shall make myself occupied for the 2 weeks of holidays that I am left with.

ps:I'M GOING TO BE M.I.A... and already man.( no msgs no calls ) :( how saddening!

Band concert

2010-06-12T22:18:00.003+08:00

Band concert was awesome. Went home quite late cuz' went to have dinner at LJS. Woohoo! Wearing heels was awesome, enduring the pain from the beginning of the day till end. haha!! Three cheers for the kss band. They are performing like professionals. School is starting in 2 weeks time and I have no idea what am I going to do at home to entertain myself. I guess all that I could do is STUDY, PLAY COMP, WATCH TV and CD. Boring life i have rite, I knw! haha...

webcaming

2010-05-31T15:35:00.005+08:00

Web cam with Amalina was fun. We sing and dance all kind of songs. hah!
Going to meet her later to study. Chemistry today. Tomorrow our intensive lesson is starting. It is just like normal school days, starts at 8 and ends at 1. But there are only 3 lessons per day. hah! boring.

Today to lazy to follow Ameera to Shuping and Tsui Wan so called Birthday celebration. No $$. But at the end I got to know that Tsui Wan treat Ameera, hmph! I should have go man.. hehe^^( free food only I want). *blush blush*
Something wrong with MUM today. She had been ignoring me everytime I talk to her. I dont why but I think I did nothing wrong:p. nevermind, maybe she MOOD SWING.. haha!( shuush dont tell anyone).
Mendak seh I at home the whole day, but good thing Amalina save me.*superduperwoman lah seh*

ok thats all for now, shall go and grab my chem notes for later. Tata..